maybe i'm further along than i thought

Thanksgiving is this week and I'm going home. This visit will serve as sort of a reunion. I'm going to see people I havnt seen in YEARS (I'm talking 7-9 years). I'm so excited, I have a feeling there will be lots of drinking and laughing..something I'm in dier (sp?) need of. I recently ran into a girl I went to highschool with, we both moved to SD shortly after gradutation. We saw eachother today for the 2nd time in 4 months.. I think the universe is telling us something, that maybe we were destined to be friends.

We got to talking about highschool friendships and animosity. We wondered about growing up (and never moving away from) a town like Sacramento. When all of your peers are the same age, you all turn 21 at the same time. With a max of 30 bars (and even fewer hip ones) your'e bound to run into the people friends (and enemies) you went to highschool with. Do those relationships carry over into the 20 something's social life (ie bar scene)? If so, are the bars just an extension of highschool? Feelings cannot be turned on and off like a lighbulb. If you do not move away from your hometown, at what point are you able to just let go of harbored resentment?

i TOTALLY asked this question!

http://www.pud.com/2006/11/holding-out.html

And I have to say that I totally agree with the response(s)..but you know, i am kind of a know it all:)

getting around

Mike* wants to hang out. I wish that I felt some sort of chemistry with him. He's real sweet, but young (23) and in the Navy. I've learned my lesson thankyou very much. I told him I was gonna lay low tonight..this week has been weekend enough for me. It started out great enough, got a job monday, got another tues. On Wed I got a call from one of my best friends parents telling me she was in the hospital (for the 5th time in 2 months) for attempting suicide, so I spent the rest of the day in the hospital. I really needed to unwind after that so some friends and I went to Incahoots. Called James that night..my mistake, I really shouldnt lead him on. Went to an ex-coworkers going away party last night, it was awkward seeing my old bosses and kind or irksome recounting my employment update over and over.

I'm trying myself to be "available." I'm over being single and I'm definately starting to feel the pressure (from family, society and unfortunatlely, myself) to settle down. Tick Tock Tick Tock. I joined "match.com" and am pretty happy with the experience so far. I like that I'm able to pick and choose who I want to talk to. If I dont feel a connection, there's no awkwardness if I dont respond to their emails. I didn't have very high expectations, and I've been pleasently surprised. Its been a month, after 2 weeks I met a pretty nice guy, unfortunately it fizzled after about 6 dates. Still a good experience, I got some good dates and some good foolin' around out of it! My "matching" is gonna have to be put on hold for a little while, I'm not allowing myself to spend any money on luxuries until I start getting actual paychecks.

I can't decide whether or not I want to keep this blog anonymous. I have family that are bloggers and feel like if they knew about my blog I might censor myself.

*Names have been changed, cause, you know, people have feelings n shit.

On the bandwaggon

Ok, so I've been thinking about doing this for awhile, I figure that my life is so hilarious/ironic/random sometimes that it HAS to be chronicled! My initial plan for this blog is to narrarate my dating/social life. Now, don't get too excited, while your'e sure to get plenty of stories, not all of them are gonna involve dates, chances are there's gonna be a few girlfriends, a couple roommates, and some tv, cause, c'mon its ME!

So the QUICK update, just to catch you all up to speed:

I live in Mira Mesa, Ca with a couple roommates. I'd say "friends" but not really. Sad but true. I have an adorable and obnoxious black lab named rodrigo. He's a tool, you wouldnt believe how many people approach me when he's around:) I recently quit my job working for a local running shoe store, and am very excited to say that I've accepted a job with a Wine Brokerage firm as a wine broker. YAY! I have images of Reislings, Shiraz, and Merlots dancing through my mind!

You may find it hard to believe, but wine and coffee are very similar. Not in what they taste like specifically, more in WHY they taste that way and how to learn to taste them. The 5 years I put in at Peets will definately serve me well. I don't offically start until 11/27. The first week is all training, mostly tastings. I'm worried that I'll get drunk and as fun as it would be, I'm pretty sure thats NOT the kind of first impression I want to make!